walked on the dark area with no lights at night hour or two ago . with someone. i saw a pretty shooting star it was very nice. there was whistling sound. like some one whistling. it sounded kinda further away . but with both heart it and then it happened again closer. it was very clear human whistling. it sounded close so you could see if someone was there. there was no one around at all. unless hiding in the trees . but that second whistle was so close frum a direction clear. so we did not go back when we went back bcus the breeze swept smell of rot that was not there before it seemed like signs of skinwalker. so we avoided going thru the dark the second time.
later by a development we pulled all these sticks out of her sock / shoe. these people from there prob some teens or drunk adults stopped yelled just a yell and then yelled at us to go home and then laughed at us. we just looked back at them like this
then they drove off cracking up. the girl i was with said when the car slowed down she thought they werre gonna come out and kill us. we would have been perfecrt defenseless victims . i dont really care if anyone kills me though i was thinking that earlier because she said what if this road were walking never ended it just kept going on forever. and i was like i dont care if it did because i dont wanna go back i hate my life. i love my cats . i would feel bad if they never knew what happened and i promised them id protect them forever.
earlier today i was listening to music and i realised that music plays me . it is exhausting and i feel dirty . i could take a shower right now but i dont want the running water to make a big deal . it is early in the morning . but something tells me that i should do it like it would magickally be or karmicallyy be the right thing to do.
i also do not think i should feel guilt for hanging out with a person . but i ffeel this feeling like i did something wrong. i look back at all we did but i keep feeling like i wasnt doing something good enough i am always missing it and it always is a very clear indication very very clear and noticable every time. i go out with someone . when it is close by or now it is months or one month or two. i do not think someone should feel guilt and i feel so clearly i have done something wrong. or not good enough. it is every time im doing anything with any body not including ... ghosts spirits friends like that .
